Oggi è una di quelle giornate in cui la mia Janeite viene fuori al meglio e mi chiedo "che cosa avrebbe fatto Jane?". Forse è stato visitare la sua casa, percorrere i suoi stessi passi, vedere con i suoi occhi...quando i miei pensieri si ingarbugliano una buona dose di Jane mi aiuta sempre a schiarirli.
Oggi ho pensato a un brano di Persuasione che tocca sempre il mio cuore: la lettera di Wentworth a Anne. Sebbene ami Orgoglio e Pregiudizio, lo spirito fiero di Elisabeth e Darcy, sebbene il mio romanzo preferito in assoluto sia Emma, e trovi che Knightley sia il mio eroe perfetto, questa lettera mi muove dentro perchè è cosi matura, cosi autentica, cosi sentita. Mi chiedo a chi pensasse Jane quando ha scritto questo pezzo.
"I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to
you by such means
as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me
not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer
myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke
it, eight years and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman,
that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have
been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have
brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not seen this? Can
you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not waited even these ten days,
could I have read your feelings, as I think you must have penetrated mine. I can
hardly write. I am every instant hearing something which overpowers me. You sink
your voice, but I can distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be
lost on others. Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed. You
do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men. Believe it to
be most fervent, most undeviating, in
F. W.
I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return
hither, or follow your party, as soon
as possible. A word, a look, will be enough to decide whether I enter your
father's house this evening or never. "
Chi non vorrebbe ricevere una lettera cosi?
Chi non aspetterebbe 9 anni per un uomo cosi?
